Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Robyn Johnston
Robyn Johnston

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